Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Exam timetable, sexpo, clubbing n church... weird combinations huh...

haiyoyo.... damn shit k.. exam timetable is out!!!!

This semester's exam timetable is like the students' dream of having it.. cause i got like so many days to study in between exams! This is like the best exam timetable so far... but shit.. i dont need it this sem!! Y cant they give it to me for my previous sem... shit... haihhh... cannot go back early adi!!! But nevermind la.. i guess this timetable is good also... better not complain so much.. hehehee.. But i hope i wont fail adi with such good timetable...

Anyways, i went to Sexpo last saturday... Did not manage to take photos cause i was busy shopping for gifts for people... hehehee... But i saw 2 men wearing uniform with dicks k.. My gawd.. how low can that person be... wearing uniform with dickheads around... hahaha... I went there to buy a red corset... blardy nice k... i was planning to wear it for CNY... looks nice wat... hehehee... but the corset was sold originally for the purpose of a uniform in bed... ehehheee... but how can u wear a corset to bed n do things..u know.. things... its already hard to breath with it... somemore wanna excercise with it??? wth..

After Sexpo, i went to HQ... I went clubbing... I had fun that night... cause it has been a really bloody long time since i went clubbing n have fun... But i was damn useless k... i only drank 2 shots of black sambuca, one shot of cowboys and one baileys with milk.. then i went home feeling all so sick and i puked once... sighh... i am damn useless k... my alcohol tolerance level has gone down so much!! I came back home from clubbing around 3am... and i slept at 4.30am... The wonderful thing is that, i can manage to wake up to go to Church the very next day...! I woke up at around 9.45am...!! Surprisingly!!

On Sunday, i went to church... but i was asleep half the time there... Sorry la... but i was really sleepy... but at least i was there... this is what i think la... Something happen at church that it made me think about it the whole day...

When i first arrived at church, the usual thing happen la... U know u find your seat, then they start singing for the day... I was sitting beside this old lady... she looks like she is in her 50s... While singing, i notice this lady beside me was like so into singing... that she even cried while singing those songs... and even cover her eyes at some point that it looks like she was possessed or something k... im not insulting la... but this is wat she looks like in the beginning ma... The whole time we were singing, she was crying la basically... i feel so uneasy adi k.. cause i cannot stand people sooo like that... wat to do, i am still a lost sheep and last Sunday was my 2nd visit to Church after sooooooooooooo long......

Then when they have their weekly announcement... I forgot what they call it... something like if u need people to pray for you, u submit your request to your pastor then he will ask everyone to pray for you in the service... When he announced that someone got cancer... i so knew it that the person is the lady beside me... She started crying again... haiyoo....

During the preaching, she cried when the pastor say something that she thinks relevent to her.. i was not listening la..cause i was sleeping... but i wake up each time she cries... When the service almost end, she started crying so loudly... and was basically yelling.. "i dont want to die, i am not ready to die... I dont wanna die..." Sighh... Why la... I kept on thinking... If u r meant to die, u will die la... There's nothing much u can change... Like me... at times i feel like killing myself, but i could not do it... I wanna die but could not die yet..cause its not my time yet ma... I know some of you might not agree with me... But then... u see... Since u know u r going to die.. might as well live to the fullest... no point sulking n crying everyday... wanna sulk n cry, just sulk n cry for a week at most..then finish up what u havent finish la... i really think this is the best way... If u r living your life to the fullest, then Maybe God will change your fate again if he sees that u r so keen on living... If u everyday sulk n cry n think that u r going to die... Might as well just go la... very sien wan u know...

each time that lady cry, the person beside her looks like her sister or something, cries with her... she in a way is hurting someone that loves her... When i see that, i feel more pain for the sister than the lady herself... sighh...

To be honest, i feel like she was actually craving for attention lor... why would someone with cancer has the mood to yell so loud out in the public while the pastor was still talking n preaching... i think that is so rude... she probably will traumatise kids that was there ok... she already made me think of her the whole day adi... until today...

Yeah, i know i am heartless... Seriously and honestly, i was really thinking to ask her just to go die... by crying like that is not going to help u live woman.... I know i will never be able to relate how she feels... but then again, i wouldnt be crying in public like that... n yell out loud like that.... But she made me realise something... LIFE IS SO DARN SHORT!~!!!~!!!

Cya people..

P.S: My blardy laptop goes farked up again... and YAY... i got a new bible from Michelle... Thanks Michelle... She is so ever soooo sweet... But seriously man, i have sinned so much that i feel quite uneasy going to church... trust me, i really have sinned so much ok... sighhh....

55 days to go... yay...

2 comments:

lasilasi said...

u mean real dick??!

princessladyjane said...

no la.. its a uniform that has the dick shape.. heheee...