Wednesday, December 09, 2009

My Life So Far?

Last weekend, i went to a close friend's wedding... Andy & Rachel... and during that wedding dinner, i met alot of my Uni friends again... Sam asked me... How are you?? You never blog for a long time already... How would i know wats up with u?

And then it occurred to me... i have abandon my blog for almost 2 months... Its not like i care much about my blog... i just have nothing interesting to write... All i can always write nowadays is about my daily life and what have i been doing, what have i been up and i do with my bf... i believe this blog will evolve as i evolve... now, im a boring person... so my blog is boring... when im married later, i will write about marriage in my blog... and when i have kids later on... my blog will be all about my kids... seriously k...

So, I've been back to Penang ever since mid July... and my God! Time flies... 5 months have passed... and im still adapting to my life in Penang... Yes, Penang life is so darn boring, nothing shit to do, no interesting events to go to, no nice clubs to go to.. So i no longer go out partying and drinking anymore....

All i've been doing is try to become a good girl, no partying wildlife, not much friends around me... adapting to quiet life... Since i have moved in with my bf, im spending every single day in and out moment with my bf... except working hours of course... Im trying to adapt into family-hood... Try to create and make better bonding with his parents... try to be useful around house work even though i dont really like to do house work... try to withstand his traditional mum's constant shooting... therefore, i learn to be more patient and traditional chinese mannerism (which i come from a modern family, and this is seriously something new to me)... Practically, im just training and trying to be a good wife, a good daughter in law and someone domesticated... But im still very far from good...

At first, when i first came back from KL, it was sweet and nice... cause everything is new and my bf was really appreciating my presence every single moment... Then on and on and on.... Since Oct till Nov, i felt really lonely.... Even though i have my own job, i still feel lonely... I was kinda in depression mode a little last month cause of my constant feeling of loneliness... Its not that my bf no longer accompany me... Its just that i feel i dont socialize enough... When i get too free at times, i think about my KL life then my aussie life... i missed them so much... There are many days which i could actually count amount of people i talk to... There are days that i only talks to my bf and no one else... For example; during weekdays when i work... i woke up to go to work and i talk to 2 of my bosses only... then i finish work and i talk to my bf.... so yeah, i was depressed for not socializing enough... and my bf, was starting to get used to me around him that he started to take me for granted... its like when we r all out together with his friends, its fine and i understand that he has to talk to his friends... but when we r alone at home at night after working, he would be doing his normal stuff like read magazines, comic books, watch his dvds, play his PS3 and etc... we dont talk much; as in those really communication type of talk... Thats y i got more n more depressed... and i couldnt take it any longer that we had a huge fight, i confronted him with my problems and etc... and now we r much better...

Come to think of it, in this 5 short months being with my bf everyday... we argued alot... we fought many times... its like i've never fought so much before in a relationship and he even agree the same thing... But we both realized that we r both moving forward really fast and our relationship is like in a fast forward pace... The more we argue and fight, the more we knew each others needs, the more we understand each other better... We never really have a huge fight and then there is no solution to it... we both always made sure that there is a solution to that problem before we brush it off and keep it inside again... We both felt that with our constant arguing, its like we are both trying to fix our indifferences before we finally settle down and get married... It feels weird though... usually people say, the more u argue with your the other half, the more further apart your feelings will be... But as for me and him, the more we argue, the closer we get... Even though we r together for almost a year, it felt like we r together for 3 years already...

This is wat i really love about my relationship with him... We can talk and discuss almost anything without any hindrance... We both can have heart to heart talk and figure out eachother's wants and needs... We both have the almost same attitude... We dont like to keep the problems to ourselves... We both like to lash it all out to each other even when there is a little problem... Its like when im feeling really lonely last month, i confronted him and told him about my problem... (of course it started with a fight first)... He said im too emoish... then i told him wats my problem and why am i being emo and he actually listens...He will listen then try to make things better, our relationship better... As for the other way round, he has problem trusting me... (n yes, i know.. it is my fault and my past that he has trust issues with me)... So, in order to gain his trust back, i spend everyday being with him... tell him how much i love him and why i love him... show him and try to prove to him that im slowly changing for the better and im not my past anymore...

Now, im feeling ok.. my bf has made efforts to communicate more and he has been n still trying to make our relationship perfect... In this relationship, i can see that we both are clearly trying to make it as colorful and as wonderful as possible... Most of the time, i feel like a married woman... and if being married is this wonderful, i dont mind man... :D (but i just wish that i have nicer and more lenient mother-in-law).... It really does feel good to have someone totally belongs to you 100%... Someone to complete you... someone to really love and care for you...

So yeah, this is wat i do almost everyday... argue with bf, hanging out with bf (we r both like inseparable... its like u see him, u'll see me... u see me, u'll see him) and his friends...and the only friends i hang out with here is Jen and Mel... Im friendless here in Penang... and i keep on thinking... damn, when i get married, i totally cannot find enough bride's maid or "chi muis" on my big day man! and my bf has a lot of friends that could easily be his best man / "heng tai".... Dieded...

And everybody / alot of people getting married these days!!! When is my turn??? Muahahahaa.....

Sick of me talking about my bf yet? Like i said, my blog will evolve along with me... muahahahaa.....

Thursday, October 15, 2009

The thing about criticism...

I recently realised that im a critic.. im a big bad critic... not the good critic type... but bad type... i complain about this n that.. everything doesnt seem to be good enough for me... but of course when it comes to about food, im very particular about my food and im the type that spends money for good worthy food... Ok, back to everything doesnt seem to be good enough for me...

Well yeah... as i was saying, i complain about almost every single things as if im so perfect... i do not know why, how and when i turned like this... but my bf has made me realise that i criticize almost about everything...

When i first met my bf, i criticize that he's not good enough for me... as in not good looking enough, not tall enough, not smart looking enough... and all i concentrated was on his bad points... but after that, i realised his bad points were only physical looks and the inner him... i have basically nothing to complain...

and what i also didnt realised is that, when criticise about him alot... i didnt think of myself? the person i am... it took me 8 months until 2 days ago... to realise that i've been so selfish and been critizing him without thinking about myself... that he could withstand my bitchiness, my craziness, my mood swings which is very superbly crazy, my hot temper and my occasional screwing with his brains, mentally torturing him... and he did not criticise me about this... and he still love me to bits... and would still wants me to spend the rest of his life with him... And so you know, being with him for this past months, i have unleashed all my craziness towards him... So he has already seen the craziness in me that no one has ever seen but he could still bear with my stupid shits... Why didnt i think of this earlier???

My point is... i have heard alot of people, wanting to choose for their perfect partner... have their own criteria and requirements on what kind of person should be their perfect life partner and who deserve to be with them (this i think i would mostly point out to girls)... is a very stupid selfish thinking... being so picky and all towards the guy... but have u girls ever think those kind of guys would want you?

Yes, to be honest.. i used to be one of them (maybe i still am)... i used to want this this that that in my bf... as in like ridiculous criteria... but what i didnt think is... what have i got to offer to deserve that kind of man?

I am lazy ass woman who prefer not to clean my own house as i think hiring maids are the solution(even though i need to clarify that i know how to do housework k! im just freaking lazy to do it), i know how to cook but lazy.. prefer to eat out... im not the manja, sweet polite kind of woman that can serve my man well... im not those traditional type of woman that serve the man all the way... i have bad habits equally as bad as man... but i ridiculously used to think that i wan the perfect prince charming husband... u know the usual, super rich, good looking, love me to death, understanding, trustworthy and bla bla bla... Heck man, im not even trustworthy at all, should i dare to request for someone trustworthy? I have crazy bitchy attitude like a princess, so do u think a super rich ass millionaire's son would love someone like me?

My points is, if you have nothing to offer to your requirement type of guy, dont ever dare to look for guys that is not up to your par!

I always believe, God is very fair... there is a reason why this or that is happening to certain people at this certain time... how u meet your love ones and how they turn out to be isnt wat you always expected...

I have this girl friend of mine... she doesnt come from a rich back ground.. but she is pretty, quite intelligent, can do house work, can cook, very elegant type.. and she found her the other half super rich ass millionaire/billionaire and loves her alot... I envy her alot... i really do.. cause she is able to get such bf/husband (and they are getting married next year)... but i cannot envy much or ask myself why i couldnt get this kind of man... cause i have nothing to offer to have such man...

But to be honest, im very happy for what i have today... as in my bf... this is not to please him or watsoever... but its the truth... i think God has been very nice to me... I have done so many shitty stuff and screw up all my past relationships which i think i dont derserve him at all... but God still gives me someone like him... even though his physical looks aint good but overall he is much better as a person compare to me... Yes, he may be freakily obssesive, his paranoia and controls me too much on some occassion and the level of his trust towards me, is like basically almost zero, but he really does loves me and plan for our future thoroughly... I understands why is he is so possesive towards me, why is he so paranoid that im gonna cheat on him, why he controls me too much and why he doesnt trust me... Its all bcos he is afraid to lose me... He is so possesive and doesnt trust me at all is because of my own doings... about my past which was never proud to be mentioned of... I have been trying my best to assure him and make him trust me more n more... so far, it still seems difficult... but i guess time till will tell... What the heck la, even i myself dont really trust him... but im very sure that i have more trust in him than he has on me....

Thats the saying of "Do Unto Others as You Would have Others Do Unto You" is really true... If im obsesive, I have to expect my the other half is obsessive as well... If i dont trust my the other half, I have to expect my the other half dont trust me as well... If im crazy and bitchy with crazy temper, i would have to expect my the other half have the crazy temper as well... Thats y they are called 'the other half'... we share everything together... we influence each other... we make each other crazy... and we pick up each other's habits and thinking along the way...

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Knock You Down By Keri Hilson feat Neyo & Kanye West

Favourite Song of the Moment....

Cause it reminds me of me and my love.... *-)


[Keri Hilson:]
Not again
Oh this ain't supposed to happen to me

[Kanye West:]
Keep rockin and keep knockin'
Whether you're Louie Vuittonin' it up, or Reebokin'
You see the hate that they serving on a plater
So what we gon have dessert or disaster?

[Keri Hilson:]
I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids (Yeah)
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down (knocked me down)

[Chorus:]
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Ne-Yo:]
I never thought I hear myself say
Ya'll gon hate
I think I'm going to kick it with my girl today
I used to be commander-in-chief for my pimp ship flying high
Till I met this pretty little missile, who shot me out the sky

So now I'm crashing don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could go back and make it happen faster
Don't you know i would baby if I could
Miss independent, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helping me pull it, she shot bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
[ Keri Hilson Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

[Kanye West:]
Tell me now can you make past your caspers
So we could finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams
To seem to only date the head of football teams,
And I was the class clown that always kept you laughing
We were never meant to be, baby we just happened
So please don't mess up the trick,
Hey young world, I'm the new slick rick,
They say I move to quick but we can't let this moment past us,
Let the hour glass pass right into ashes
Let the wind blow the ashes right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
how could a goddess ask someone that's only average, for advice
O-M-G you listen to that bitch?
Woah is me, baby this is tragic
Cause we had it, we was magic
I was flying, now I'm crashing
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I'ma ask him

[Keri Hilson:]
So you gotta take the good with the bad, the happy and the sad
Or will you bring the better future then I had in the past
Cause I don't want to make the same mistakes i did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Woah, woah
I'll admit it, I was scared to answer loves call
Woah, woah
And if it hits, better make it worth the fall

(When it comes around)

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around (comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down (knocks you down)

Won’t see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love comes knocks you down

Won’t see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down

Yea yea... i know... i've been neglecting my blog.... will blog about something really soon k.... hehehehee.....

Monday, August 24, 2009

Blah... boring sial...

I should really be blogging...

been a lazy freak... no mood to blog... nothing to blog... and i realised i have abandoned my blog for more than a month already!!!

So... Miss Jane here... has been back to Penang for a month already! Damn... it felt longer than one month to me... >_<

what have i been doing?

Spending my time, day in day out, night and day every single day with my bf... which of course im loving it!... but at the same time, missing my hectic n complicated many things to do life in KL... Penang is superbly boring! I practically lepak the same place most of the time over n over again... unlike KL, so big n wide... many places to go hang out on weekends...

So what i do everyday here?

When i was jobless, i sleep in everyday... waiting for my bf to finish work then he would bring me go dinner n etc... He would also bring me to lunch whenever he is free... He basically gives me all his time... he would bring me everywhere he goes... and we both are constantly together...

Now that im working, whenever he is free, he will come to my office and fetch me for lunch... ;D I have such wonderful bf... ^__^ cause we r always together no matter wat.... hehehehee.... *yeah, im very sticky this way.. and he loves me being this sticky...*

I celebrated my birthday this month... which is a wonderful celebration... cause i spent my bday by going to a nice dinner with my bf, my bestfriend, and my bf's best friend... just 4 of us...

My bf bought me Haagen Daaz Ice Cream cake! Mango and Passionfruit Ice Cream...

Had a very quiet evening just spending my time with the people i loved...



Me and my best friend...


A very sweet gift from my bf... the most expensive gift i have ever recieved as well...

Sorry, no posting up bf's pictures... Bf wish to remain anonymous to public until end of the year... ahahhaaha... if u got my facebook, u would have seen it all...

Lately, i've been feeling my life is boring n has no excitement at all... the only fun thing n excitement i have is looking forward to spend more time with my bf... which i think we maxed it out... haahahhahaa... cause we would always shoot each other, insult each other... make fun of people... do silly stuff together... which i really enjoyed it... but when he gets too much, i freaking hates it!

anyways, got to go... going spend more time with bf again... this is all i do for now.... :D :D :D

Friday, July 17, 2009

A new journey... again...

Im facing a new life journey again... :D

I resigned my job in KL and moving back to Penang... again... hehehee...

Today... as in Friday, will be my last day of work here...

Been a very exciting, challenging, eventful, color life of mine in KL...

I met loads of new friends... gain a genuine friend... lost a friend whom i actually thought is genuine... almost hook up with some people but thank God i didnt... but ended up having a boyfriend who is back in Penang... then there i go again, another long distance relationship... but after tomorrow, it shall not be a long distance relationship anymore... I actually look forward for the day i could actually spend everyday with my boyfriend and see how we go from there... is it possible to live together everyday with my madness n his madness together?

Come to think of it, i never had close distance (as in a boy friend whom i can see everyday without fail) for a long time already.... it has been 2 and half years actually.... I shall see how this go...

I will see how my Penang life treating... hope its good this time... since i've found someone whom i think i can rely on... *like finally*

Im going to Perhentian Island tomorrow night... need to reach Jetty early morning by 7am, saturday morning... I cant wait for the moment to come... as this will be the first time i actually go for a vacation with my bf.... :D

I have been in a very happy clappy mood each time i think about this upcoming perhentian trip... yippieee.... i am soooooo looking forward to it.... :D :D :D :D :D

Im coming back from Perhentian on Tuesday.... will stop by KL to pack up my stuff n have dinner for awhile first, then drive off to Penang right away as my bf need to work on Wednesday... Then i will back to KL on Saturday to have dinner with my friends then off to Hennessy Artistry!!! The biggest Hennessy Artistry event of the year! And this i shall not miss!



ONE MASSIVE PARTY!! by Hennessy Artistry

25th July 2009 @ Bukit Kiara Indoor Arena...

Dont miss it people.... See u there! And im definitely there!!! HAhahahahaa...

After 26th of July... i myself am not sure when i will come visit KL again... mostly coming for the Guinness 250 years celebration... if i got the invites! And this Guinness 250 years celebration cannot be missed as well!!! or else i have to wait another 250 years! Ahahahahha....

Sighh... somehow i feel quite heavy hearted to leave my KL life... my freedom... and all my friends... actually, its more of the freedom... aahhahaa... No parental control... lol....

Anyways... see u guys later.... sleep sleep time... :D waiting... waiting... cant wait to Perhentian later... ehhehehe.... CYA....

Friday, July 10, 2009

Random Thought of the Day...

Its funny that grown adults like me... or working adults in general are still afraid of getting caught by parents for doing wrong things...

The wrong thing that im referring to is smoking... i have alot of friends as in working adults friends ranging up till 40 years old is still afraid of getting caught smoking by their parents...

Yes, i know it may be out of respect they have for their parents thats why they are afraid of getting caught... but it really funny to hear them talk about it...

The way they talk about it is like... "huh, if my parents ever finds out that im smoking, i confirm die!" or "i will be chopped in million pieces1!" or "i will be disowned man!!"... The way they put it seems like they are still underage... hehehhee.... so cuteee....

Some even resort to smoking alot while working... then when they go back home to their parents or spouses, they pretended like nothing... Like how i used to do wrong things when i was a little girl and hide things around to avoid my parents from killing me... lol!

For example like me... im still afraid of getting caught by my parents if i were to do wrong things... But my main reason is that because i didnt want to disappoint them... It just hurts wayyyyy more to see the disappointed faces of my parents than them whacking or scolding me upside down...

Oh well... this is just a random thought... am so sleepy now... gonna sleep.... i actually wanted to continue something about the hardship of being a parent... but.. my eyes are literally -____- already....

so good night... sweet dreams baby!

Friday, July 03, 2009

Blah!

Dont know how to title this post...

cause this post is going to be another random posting n updating about my life...

yes, i know... im a boring person nowadays... i dont go out often anymore... i dont party that much anymore... maybe my bf has domesticated me.... hahahahhaaa... *he wish he could! apparently he say im too wild for him!* somemore wants me?!!!

Aiya, its just that going out too much is not that fun for me anymore... im a boring old person that only stays at home nowadays... when i finish work, i go home n have dinner at home n watch my series n online... thats all i do.... during the weekends, i will either spend my weekends sleeping and laze around the house or go back penang...

and sheesh... didnt get to go Perhentian last weekend... dammit... i was so sick that i cannot even last whole 5 mins without coughing... imagine coughin 20 meters underwater with my regulator on..! yucks! and somemore my bf (oh i have to say boyfriend cause apparently someone said that bf could mean best friend =_=")... my bf was very caught up with work that he couldnt leave his island to another island... so perhentian trip postponed.... i will go there on mid july... this time ha, i die die also must go adi! Bf busy also i will go myself! i seriously need the relaxation!

And oh, i've decided to move back to pg for good...! Its better this way for everyone... so i dont have to like run back n forth pg kl pg kl like a mad woman almost everyweekend...

Another different topic....

I got a new baby!


This is a pic i took when i brought her home the first day with me... on 10 June 2009

A female yorkshire terrier... She was born on 14th February 2009! A Valentine's baby!


Trying to camwhore with her when i was back in Penang...

I call her Honey.... I wanted to name her Grisselle... But apparently people find it hard to pronounce.. So i decided to change her to something simpler yet so sweet... HONEY!


Another one of her licking my face... so cuteeeee... she loves licking people's face... and she especially loves licking her daddy's face... yes, im the mummy... my bf is the daddy.... She licks her daddy's face until the whole face full of her saliva... =__=" i was like... damn, there's no way in hell in gonna kiss u after this darling... ahhahahaha....


And she loves human contact... she really loves sleeping on my arms, my lap... and her daddy's big tummy... see sooo cuteee....

I was driving back from kl to penang... fetching her back to see her daddy... and throughout the journey, she wouldnt want to sleep nor even sit down in her cage... she would just try to stand and look at me while i was driving... and u know, driving the north south highway, its dangerous n i need to put 100% attention to driving... and most of my friends would know how fast i drive back from kl to pg and vice versa... it takes me 3 hours from kl house to pg house ok.... so yeah.. pretty fast.... and with my constant breaking n accelerating due to stupid retarded drivers on highway, Honey would still stubbornly trying to balance herself and try to stand....

So when i reach ipoh toll, i decided to put her on my lap while i was driving... then she will fall asleep less than 5mins after on my lap... damn.... and yeah, she was sleeping all the way from ipoh to penang... but waking up when i have different movement like taking my smart tag to scan at toll...

She will usually just fall asleep right away if i carry her on my arms or on my lap... which she makes me feel.... "awwwww.... like a baby...."


Another picture of me trying to act cute while camwhoring... lol! *dont puke k* i know i dont have the cute face!

But u see her so small n cutesy cutesy... her temper is like WOAH!... Like mine.... crazy shit... if no given attention, she will bark until u give her attention... or she will release her anger on her little small toy ball...


This is a video of her... her first day with me... and she was trying to get out from her crate but she was too chicken shit to do so... then she got so frustrated n vent her anger on her toys! and with this video, u can somehow guess how bad is her temper adi... ahahhahaa...

But to this date, she is like a pro coming out from her crate already.... got more guts now... hahahhaaa....

And these 2 videos below are videos of my bf trying to piss her off with soft toys! Its freaking funny i tell u.... oh if u understand hokkien is better cause in the video, me n my bf was conversing in hokkien mix english...





Damn... i miss her... she is staying with her daddy in Penang... and i will go back n see her once in a while... but now since i've decided to go back penang for good... i get to see her everyday!

Thats all about my life rantings... will update more later on....

Oh.. my next most anticipated party... Biggest Hennessy Artistry event of the year... on 25th July 2009!

Be back soon... muacckkkss!

and i missy you my darling.... =)

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Things happen for a reason... Is it a sign?

Sometimes i wonder.... is it a sign?

Things happening to me lately that is making me down... so down that i keep thinking about it everyday until i get severe headaches.... sometimes even almost to tears... but i manage to control cause i tell myself its nor worth it to break into tears for reasons like these...

Everything that is happening, comes at the right timing...

It is not really convenient for me to mention it now until it ends...

But i have made a decision, a decision which is rather big which i did not consult my parents at all... but i kinda hinted to them before...

anyways, since i have decided... its too bad for my parents ler... im sorry... i just couldnt stand it anymore... so my dear parents, i cannot stand it anymore... thats y this decision is made....

In short... and again (i think i have said this before somewhere in my blog)... it really hurts when i treat someone as a friend genuinely... someone whom i thought could be good friends but they all end up hurting me... back stabbing me and talk things behind my back.... and NO... IM NOT SEEKING PITY from people... this is what i honestly think n feel... People who knows me well enough will know that i hate people to feel pity for me! *only people that do the backstabbing and the talking will feel my statement above*

Im going to disappear from your life soon... if it makes u all happy, i think its worth it and is best that i disappear from u all... But also, thanks for all the teaching and patience u guys have on me... yeah, u guys win... i bet u all will be very happy the day u guys find out that im gonna disappear...

Oh n especially to someone... (i think this someone do read my blog quite often and i think that person will know im referring to that person)... it was really nice to have someone like u as a friend... all the jokes we shared... and its really nice to have someone that speak the same channel with me everyday... but i dont know why that someone just suddenly one day out of the blue decided to refuse to talk to me anymore... and keeps on insulting me n bad mouthing me lately... Oh well, its a pity... we could have been really good friends cause i really feel comfortable talking to u and sharing stories with u.... we had really good times talking nonsense n even shooting each other jokingly... occasional dinner together n catching up... i thought i felt the genuinity of your friendship... *if there's such word as genuinity* Oh well, i guess i was wrong...

From today onwards, i decided to be patient... like what my bf says... sometimes be patient n keep quiet, things will just loosen up... So, im gonna be patient from today onwards until i disappear...

counting down the days....

P.S: On a happier note, im going to Perhentian Island next week! My darling going to take open water course and join me for diving adventures! Yay! finally going to diving afterall! Cant wait! I really really need this break... i really need this getaway to release all my unhappiness....

Monday, June 08, 2009

Is it Fate?

Sometimes i wonder...

Is it fate that really brought us together?

Its funny to see the cycle that we went through in our relationships... Its almost similiar when i come to think of it...

But im always a step ahead of him... =)

He had 2 serious relationships and im his third...

I had 3 serious relationships and he's the forth...

We both went through a really hellish long relationship which his lasted 6 years, mine lasted 5 years...

In both of our hellish long relationship, we both went through the same exact course and path... but i broke free from mine a year earlier than him...

He went through all the nonsensical relationships in between serious relationships and i went through the same thing....

We both went through those nonsensical relationships the really hard way which made us who we are today...

This nonsensical relationships mature us both and gives us a very big impact...

We met early 2007 (mel introduced me to him)... both were still attach with our then serious relationships which his was having problems and mine was starting to have problems... but i nvr had a thought that i'll be with him today...

But i was thinking, if he is so perfect to me, why didnt God give him to me way earlier so that i dont have to go through all those nonsense previously...

But then again, i believe God has its own way of doing things... I think if i didnt go through wat i went through and he didnt go through wat he went through, i dont think both of us will be together today...

Its like for example, he knew i was already single last year... but he waited n waited for the right time to appear then only he started to apporach me..

Both of us always joked around... like he keeps on blaming me why the hell do i go to KL to work la... and i always blame him in return that, why didnt he go after me as soon as he knows i am single and when i was still in Penang la... i could have made my decision and stayed back in Penang just for him...

But come to think of it, if he were to go after me that time when i was just single, he wouldnt win me anyways... as a matter of fact, he would have failed miserably that time...

Why i'd say so? Cause after coming over to KL to work, i dated several guys which some almost become my bf but at the end it failed miraculously... *somehow now i feel it failed bcos of God. God had a plan for me... that plan is for me to meet him... ^__^ which i didnt understand this then cause i was busy feeling miserable* After going through those nonsensical relationships, i finally understood how guys really think in a painful way... i gave up hope on love at one point and stayed really single as in not dating anyone... having a really peaceul time of my life where i have no one to call, no one to report to, no one to miss and no worries about relationship at all.... that was my most peaceful moment... and my phone bill was really cheap and my phone seldom rings at all except during working hours...

Then i went back to Penang on end of Dec last year for a week long holiday when i asked him out just for innocent yam cha with my best friend mel... and this leads to karaoke... and dinner... (all these with a group of friends) and i was kinda surprise that time and was thinking to myself... how come this time this guy suddenly so free can come out all the time ha... and we slowly progress from then on...

and as i was saying.. after coming to KL and went through wat i've went through, i can appreciate a love like his.... imagine, if i didnt go through all those hurtful moments, i wouldnt know how to appreciate his type of love...

Accepting him at first was really hard in the first place... this is because of the situation and position he was/is in and i was in... I kinda mind how he looks etc n all (this i shall not eloborate) slowly slowly... i find myself falling in love with him more n more each day... and i dont mind about his outlooks anymore, in fact he is cute to me now... ^__^ He on the other hand, has always treated me like his dreamgirl and he already fell in love with me when we first met.... Loving me full heartedly... never love me less than he already has... (this is wat he said la) treats me like a princess... and always try his best to make our relationship perfect...

I on the other hand, i feel... it really nice to have someone love me more than i love him in the beginning... keeps on screwing up things... never appreciate him and took him for granted... i gave him a hellish roller coaster ride... he couldnt feel my presense in him... as i was really unsure about him... i was confused...

Y am i feeling this way? Cause i already told myself that the next time i have a bf, i hope my next bf would be the one... I am going to make effort to make him the last bf i ever had... *but of course i cannot predict the future la, if it cannot work, then i guess he's not the one* I feel so unsure cause i never expect he would be my bf... or my future husband... and i was giving up hope on love that time... it was hard to suddenly to have the need to accept the fact im getting attach again this soon!

But after the roller coaster ride i have given him, i tell myself to stop being a bitch and start being fair to him... Therefore, till this day... i found myself loving him more n more each day... eventhough i can still love him way much more than this... but after what i've gone through in my past relationships, i find it hard to trust people anymore... i stll need to reserve alittle and pull back some... for in case anything happens... and for him to settle some shit... =__="

Being with him like this now... Im loving the moments with him... i feel so happy n relaxed... i dont have to pretend to me somebody im not... i dont have to pretend to be gentle and tender nor polite... cause he makes me feel comfortable showing him who i really am... and according to him, he also feel really comfortable with me around... he is the real him when im around... he dont have to be fake like he used to when he was with his ex... he can go as crazy and hyper all he wants and no one would scold him for acting hyper... and i would go crazy with him as well...

Compare to my craziness and his... of course his is wayyyyyyyyy crazier... sometimes his wackiness and craziness embarassed me okay!

Well, im glad our paths cross this way... at such a right timing i would say... will we go till the end? I dont know....

But wat im sure of is that... i love to see his bashful face when i say things that embarassed him or found out embarassing things about him... his bashful face is soooooo cute ok! *yes, i know... this is so random of me*

And as for him... he loves to see me getting annoyed... He likes to make me feel agitated and annoyed.. and he also likes to make me feel stupid... then he will really ROFL his ass off... he is damn blardy cheeky that way... in hokkien means... he really like to "titu" me ok...

But when he over do it and make me angry leh... he bring this fire to himself la... im not always that sporting k...

Aiya... have to abruptly stop this... cause going off... yes, i know this is too gay for u all to read... hahahhaaaa....

bubyeeee...

oh, i love you darling..... ahhahahahaaa.....

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Random Posting...

Remember guys...

This Thursday....

2nd installment of the year for Hennessy Artistry!!!

At Zouk, KL.. 9pm onwards!

This Saturday, Standout Party by Tiger Beer with Nuffnang!!!

This Saturday also.... Hed Kandi in MOS, Sunway!

Happening week this week... =)

Last weekend, my parents came to KL...

I lived a lavish life...

Got to eat expensive food when my parents is around...

Spent most of our times shooting each other... havent feel like a close knit bond with them in a long time adi...

My mum bought me a Gucci lanyard... cause Gucci on sale... Oh... and designer brands on sale la!! All 30% off!! Gucci, Coach, Burberry... All sale!

My next wish list is to own a designer handbag.... MUM!!!! PLEASE... Can i??? =)

I actually had wanted to blog about different types of relationships in general... but.... i lost inspiration already.. cause im chatting with ppl in msn now while typing this.... =___=" lost the plot adi la....

So no mood to blog adi la... lost my inspiration adi ler....

be back next time... hahahaha....

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Somebody's So Sweeettttttt......

Somebody has been so sweet to me...

Yeah, this entry is to hereby officially announce i have a bf!

No no no... not best friend... i already had a best friend since 13 years ago... and its still going stronger... ^__^

Its boyfriend that im referring to.... lol... (i wonder why is there a need for me to announce it huh? hahahahahaa)

When i read back my previous entries regarding my exes... and honest fact that time, i tot my exes was one of the sweetest i've known... but God still decide to be kind to me (eventhough after all the shit things i've done to messed up my previous relationships) and give me even sweeter, even nicer bf compared to my exes...

Sighh.... i love you God... thank you very much for being kind to me... (cause i tot i will get my karma for doing shit things in my previous relationships) Oh, maybe i already gotten my karma... Well, i dont know... i dont care... as long as im happy now...

Introducing my bf..... (nope, shall not post his pic up unless i get married to him and post our wedding pictures up...) my close friends already seen him... :D And i know, u guys must be wondering why it took me so long to officially announce it huh??? ahahhahaa.... well, i got my reasons...

Ok, back to introducing my bf....

He is someone who is sooooo sweet and thoughtful that its not even funny k...

He has done so many sweet things and thoughtful things to make my heart melt...

Best example i could think of for now is... usually when i finish work, i need to walk a distance and go tru a dark carpark space only can reach my car... regardless how busy he was, even he was having a meeting, he will insist i call him to talk to him on the phone until i reach my car for my safety purpose... every single day without fail... so sweet right... but i was thinking, what if something really happen to me, he cant help much isnt it?

And he really adores me so much and treats me like a princess... even though at times i dont really like to be spoilt cause i dont want to end up depending on him too much.... But now, he kinda made me dependent on him abit already.... =___="

He doesnt allow me to pay a single cent when im out with him... which i have literally stop arguing with him over this... so i dont want to even bother trying to pay anymore... But its only fair la... he makes more than me and his standard of living is lower than mine... ^_^

He plans for our future and adores me... yes, i know i have mentioned that he adores me... but well, he really adores me so much that i have to mention it again.... HAHAhahahaha..... *lame, i know*

Physical look, we r both not that compatible... he's the same height as me... but if i were to wear heels, i confirm be taller than him at least half a head... but what the heck... he loves me and adores me... so what the heck man... looks aint that important...

But we r both quite same and different in many ways... like... we both like to bite our finger nails... we both sleeps like a pig and can nvr wake up to the loudest alarm clock that rings... we r both fat... even though he's fatter... LOL... sorry darling...

he's very good at drawing and i seriously suck at drawing... He dont eat seafood and i love seafood... No one will fight with me when im looking for crabs roe to eat cause he doesnt like seafood... and i eat all i want... ahahhahaa....

He is chinese educated and im english educated... so, its good... i can have someone help me translate chinese and i go travelling in chinese countries without getting lost or tongue tied... his thinking is more traditional compared to mine, which is good i need someone to tone me down...

basically we complement each other right? ^___^

I like his crap and crazy talking ways... and he loves my bitchiness and he can handle my bitchiness... so why not? Not many people can stand and handle my bitchiness u know....

Its like, when i have my bitchy mode turned on as in simply screwing him and going crazy for no reason... he wont scold me or watsoever....but he will counter attack it with his actions and words that i will end up biting myself with it, tongue tied and lose the attack shamefully... and seriously cannot defend my own actions... =____=" and i freaking hates it when he does that... cause sometimes can really vomit blood wan k...

But its fine... i really do need someone who can control my bitchiness.... hahaahhaaa....

I even went for tarot card reading... (cause i have this tarot card lady who is very accurate)... and she told me that this guy is my soul mate... and we already known each other in our past life... but in our past life, we r best friends (he was a girl in his past life apparently)... and this life we r meant to be soulmates.... (it makes me wonder, if mel this life is my best friend, next time she will be my soul mate! HAHAHAHHAHAa....) So, a peace of mind there when my tarot card lady told me to go ahead... hehehee....

How do i get to know this sweet thing of mine?

Knew him almost 2 and half years ago through mel... when i first knew him, i was attached with someone else and he was attached with someone else.... and never in a million years that time i thought i will ever be with him today... lol! We became friends... only come out for supper or dinner with group of friends occassionally cause i was not always in Penang (oh, he's a Penang guy btw)... and we started to get closer early this year... and then... wheeeee.... the rest is a roller coaster ride... AHHAHAHAHAA.... and i really mean the roller coaster ride ok!

Cause being with him, everyday is different... his craziness and wackyness never fails to amuse me... maybe because we r still new la.... I bet prolly, after 2 years or so... each time he do stupid stuff, i will prolly whack him in the head and tame him like a monkey and tell him to behave adi.... HAhahahhahaa....

and oh... he is a blardy hell good kisser.... HAhahaha.... sorry darling, i just have to say it..... and yea yea, think furthur more than kissing, he is good in 'it' also ok! or else, i wouldnt be with him if he suck at it.... ahahahhaaa.... why the hell am i promoting my own bf huh??? I think his wacky attitude influenced me already.... Im getting wackier each day!

Well, i seriously do thank God for giving me someone like him cause i always thought my karma confirm bad wan.... or maybe my karma havent strike? Aiya, dont want to think much....

The down side is we r having long distance... im working in kl and he's in pg... but we see each other almost every weekend... but its good in some ways that i wont get bored with him so soon... (he said he definately wont be bored of seeing me everyday, its just me) hopefully this relationship of mine will workout la ya...

So guys... dont be surprise if i suddenly announce if im getting married.... HAhahahahaa.... im old already!

oh, i never have to worry if i mentions about the marriage thing... *cause usually guys freaks out when girls touch the topic of marriage* cause he talks about it more than i do... i believe he is even more eager to start a family than i do.... see, he so sweet......

like he said... "species like him, cannot find already la! where to find! only this one left.... *points to himself* Yes, he is so perasan at times...

But i love him.... and everything of him.....

he reads my blog btw (reads it ever since this blog created).... Hie darling... i love you... hope u dont mind me writing bout u! ^__^

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I'm a Standout in Life

YEEEHARRRRR..... Nuffnang is organizing another party!!! Yay!! In collaboration with Tiger (which means loads of booze this time!!! LOL!), Nuffnang and Tiger is organizing a party with the theme called "Standouts"!

When i first read the theme... i was thinking.... wuahhh... this shouldnt be hard! Its time for boasting... I can boast and brag about myself shamelessly... LOL!!!

So, how standout am i in life?

I have a few standout moments in my life... but i will mainly concentrate my proudest moment of my life, doing things i love and have passion for and a standout among the crowd....

Yes, Im referring to my modelling life.... back in the year of 2001 till mid year 2004... i stopped modelling right before i go to Australia to furthur my studies and get a degree....

During my modelling time, i joined several fashion shows, hair shows, and beauty pageants...



Did fashion show for one of the fashion designing schools... on year 2002...


I especially love this dress...


Bridal show... year 2004


Taken on year 2004...


When i was joining some pageants in 2003...


See.... i look so damnnnn thin that time!!! Now, im freaking fat.... =__="


This was taken when i was in Miss Malaysia Universe National finals... year 2003.... *can you spot a familiar face in there?*


Me with a good friend of mine... who was Miss Malaysia Universe 1st runner up 2003... and because of this traditonal costume, i won best traditional costume among all the finalist in Miss Malaysia Universe 2003... ^__^

During my modelling and pageant life, i won several titles as well... i shall not elaborate much as its nothing of a big deal anyways... (later i turn emo cause i'll feel too old and too fat for all these already...)

My best achievement and the best time of my life during my pageants time is joining the Miss Malaysia Universe 2003! i have learnt alot of valuable experience from that pageant...





I actually have my face into local newspapers many times before... these below are just a few examples that i can dig out at such short notice (cause have to blog and brag about my standout moment ^__^)


*spot the familiar face again* *guess who am i referring to?*




*spot her face again... she is the winner of Miss Malaysia Universe 2003 and the host for Malaysian Dreamgirl* I think when i say the host for MDG, confirm u all know who adi right?

I have to unfortunately say that my modelling career/life ended on 2006... my last show was when i was in australia, joining Adelaide's supermodel competition, which of course i didnt win anything... ^__^

Since then i have gained weight tremendously and have turned so fat ever since... lol!


My Adelaide's Supermodel Competition.... on 2006... last catwalk i had ever did...

There are many times when i look back at my past photos about my modelling, i miss it so much... i miss those days man... i miss my then body... lol! Sometimes i do wish i get to do catwalk again... *all i have to freaking do is go super skinny again! but am so no discipline la!*

How did i manage to stay thin then? because my good metabolism rate and its because i know i will have constant fashion shows and catwalk to do, thats y i have discipline to not eat much and exercise regularly... now, since i dont have anymore shows to do... i eat like a goddamn monster ok!

I guess thats all for my standout moment...

People who knows me well or knows me close enough, they know im quite a standout as a person most of my life... i do things very differently from people... cause im always proud of myself and thank God that im gifted in my own way... =)

Now, i cant wait for the standout party... hmmmm.... wat shall i wear for that night????


*this is up for trying to win the Nintendo DS Lite!!!*

This time, the standout party, there is alot to win!!!

A HP Notebook, Nintendo DS Lite, XBox 360, a Coach Handbag and many many many many many more mystery prizes!!!

for more info regarding the party... please click here...

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#UPDATE#

Ren asked me to mention about my KK Trip which i climbed the damn Mount Kinabalu!! AHhahaaa... another thing to brag about myself....

Even though im such a softy and a princessy... and no one will ever every EVER thought i'll do this.... but... i managed to....


I climbed the Mount Kinabalu!!! =) *try not to focus on how ugly i look in this pic ok! i went through hell climbing the damn mountain ok!*

Since im on the state of bragging and to show what a standout i am...

Im also proud to say that im a sponsor for a child for world vision... read my story here...

OK OK OK... enough bragging about myself... tata....

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Life's REALLY Good with LG!~!~!

Life's Good with LG ~~~~

Why i'd say so?

Cause last weekend on 8th May 2009, a BIG THANK YOU to LG and Nuffnang... i got the passes to attend one of my favourite event of the year...

LG Blog Launch Party!!!

Know why i love it alot...? Its because of the theme.... Angelic White or Devilish Red... You all should know... me love red till death do me part!

When i know i was required to either wear red or white color, i knew it right away that wearing red color wouldnt be a problem for me! But ask me to do cosplay and be a devil abit the hard... =)

I went to the LG Blog Launch Party which was located at the Menara Hap Seng, Metropol Gourmet Bar right away after work... as usual, when i have events to attend after work, i will do my make-up and change in the office...LOL!

To cut all my grandmother stories short... let me proceed to the party ya...

Personally, i feel its a very successful event for the first electronic company in Malaysia to hold a blog launch for the very first time...

I can see everybody dancing to the music, participating every games that is organised... (usually bloggers are very sporting and interesting ppl...they participate in watever whenever! LOL!)

Hightlights of the night....


The party started off with loads of hot looking LG ladies... loads of balloons... red and white balloons...



loads of refreshments, drink and finger food... its like unlimited supply throughout the night ok...




So many peopleeesss..... lingering, mingling around... making new friends... old friends turned even closer friends because of the free flow of booze... =)




The blog launching was officiated by LG's Managing Director, Mr. TY Ko... The MD was talking about the importance of internet and how the blogging world has big influence on almost everything.. which is why LG decided to launch its own blog... and make things more differently than other corporate blog....


The peeps behind the LG Blog....


After all the introductions and speeches, the LG Blog was officially launched! With balloons released into the sky....


And man... it was a beautiful sight....

The LG Blog Launch Party was made more interesting with the attendance of local celebrities.... Mei Yan, Serena C and Will Quah who helped to make the party more interesting by entertaining the crowd during games time.


This is Mr. Thomas... which he was dancing for the best dancer competition... Eheheee.... The best dancer actually wins a dvd player! when i heard the prize was the dvd player, i was thinking... DAMN, LG people really nice n generous man... And this lucky Mr. Thomas, won it!! Ish ish ish!!


And i took pic with Michael.... Hehehee.... He is my Guinness draught drinking buddy.... =)

The biggest highlights of the night is of course awarding the best dressed angel and best dressed devil...


Me taking picture with the best dressed Devil aka redmummy.com aka Mira! Man, when i first saw her, i was like... confirm she will win for devil la... So outstanding n unique and really... big effort was done... She wnet home with an LG 32” Full HD LCD TV....ish... good for her... all effort paid for...


Miss Jolyn and me... i finally talk to her and took pictures during the Hennessy Artistry party in Penang which was held 2 weeks ago... and i saw her again in this LG party... WOAH, she like came all the way from Penang to just attend this party and really dressed up for it... This is wat i call hardcore passion for cosplay and partying!!! Of course as u can see, she is supposed to be an angel but she wont "The Confused Angel" award because of her boots that she was wearing... the judges, serena C and Will Quah said that boots really doesnt match up wit her angel look because the boots that she was wearing looks like its suppose to be worn by whores... LOL! And she won the LG Cookie mobile phone!!! So, she didnt waste her effort for coming all the way from Penang afterall... hahahaaa...

Kim Ong from kimong.com won ‘The Purest Angel’.... So she went home with an LG 32” Full HD LCD TV too!!

Jovi from Hengjovi.blogspot.com came was awarded “The Out-of-Place Devil” Award and won the new LG Cookie mobile phone....

People from LG so damn generous... 2 LG 32" LCD TV, 2 LG Cookie mobile phone, 2 LG DVD Player were given out that night!!! FUHH!!!


Oh and i saw nicole there too.... finally get to meet her in person, walk up to her and say hie to her and take pictures with her!

After the whole event ended, we danced around... party the whole night out... free flow of drinks were still served.... and of course cam whored alot... lol!!

I was resting and sitting around after much craziness and partying in me... i was watching this LG advertisments that they were playing on the TV around the Metropol bar... I was kinda facinated with their advertisements.... I particularly like the washing machine advertisement... somehow it captured my attention... and i was watvhing it repeatedly for like half an hour... must be really interesting.... =)

To be honest, LG really have mass advertising... i can see the word "Life's Good with LG" everywhere i go... and i am now watching AXN on TV... and LG's advetisement is played on every commercial break! This shows how successful LG is over the years even with the economy slowing down in the country....


Nicest picture of that night! *There's actually alot more bloggers showing up... but i pick this picture cause there me in it.... =) *

And the best blogger who wrote the best about the LG Blog Launch will win this....


LG Arena touch screen phone worth RM1,899...

Hmmm... I wonder who will win this??? =)

Anywayws, to check out more regarding LG's latest news, events and happenings... go to www.lgblog.com.my.... Im very sure you will find alot of interesting things happening in there.... like this latest.. Break Out - Extreme Dance Comedy... they are now giving out 15 pairs of tickets... So, faster go to their blog and check it out!!!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Two sided face people....

It really amazes me how people or certain human can be so two faced... so fake...

My close friends knows me really well... im not really a 2 face people when i really dont have to.... im always the straight forward kind of person.... when i like u, u can feel it.... when i care for you, u will know it.... when i hate u, u will feel it... If i dont like u the first time i see u, i dont bother talking so much to u.... When i no longer love u, u will feel n know it... i am really this straight forward...

and im never the type to "polish shoes"... as in like "polish teacher's shoes" while in school or "polish bosses' shoes" in working life... I do things sincerely... and i seriously hate "shoe polishers"... they look so disgusting when they r "polishing shoes"...

Its like when my teachers or bosses scolds me (while im in the learning process), im not the type who will hate them cause i know their scoldings will teach me something and i always think positively that they scold me because they care... unless i know they purposely scold me for no good reason, that one confirm hate la...

But of course when it comes to clients or customers, i have to be and am forced to be 2 face.... or im fake to people that i dont give a shit about... well, i dont give a shit about them, so why be genuine? which i nvr like to do that... cause its so fake... and whats even worse is when u have to face fake people everyday... i feels kinda depressing, suffocating and miserable for me cause i cant be real n true... sigghh...

People who are my close friends, they will know im genuine in friendships...

So, i sincerely hate and HATE people who are fake... Why do people need to be fake? If you dont like me, u can come up to me and tell me what i did wrong and if its acceptable, i will change or not do things that tick you off in front of you... You dont have to be fake with me... i can be very reasonable wan u know...

Im on this topic because i have recently found out friends/people whom i thought could be nice friends/people to mix with, turned out to be 2 faced people... *notice i put "slash" for friends/people... cause i dont know whether to treat them as people or friends anymore* sighhh.....

But sometimes it does sucks to be a genuine friend to other people but when i find out that the person is not genuine towards me, it felt so hurting man... I've experience this 2 times in my life and that 2 times really hurts like shit.... it actually felt worse than being dumped by bf... why huh? why people like to be fake huh?

i think im lucky to have a handful of genuine friends... which i think they are really genuine la...

To me, my definition of genuine friends are friends who will scold u for ur stupidity, tell u honestly about certain things like for example... u r freaking fat already man! whoah, u look so ugly! Damn u were damn rude ok!!! or... scold u whenever u do something wrong... those are genuine friends... and of course help u whenever u needed help... and they are the ones u think of first and consult with whenever u have problems and trouble... and yeah, they r indirectly your closest friends...

For example, like Alex... i hate it at times when he talks to me... cause the way he talks to me can be fucking rude at times k... but i dont find fault with him nor scold him for being rude(unless he goes too overboard) cause i know he is being genuine with me and really tells me straight forwardly about certain things... if he has to care about every single words that comes out from his mouth, that wouldnt be as genuine already right? *but still Alex, try not to be so "thu pek" while talking to me k* LOL! Anyways, i'll miss Alex... He's flying off to Egypt tonight for work purposes... according to him, he will be away for at least 3 months! =( So loooonnnngggggg...... when he was in Bangladesh for almost 2 months, it felt really long adi... now going off for 3 months or maybe more???? ARGHHH... candie.com =______= But i asked him to update his blog for me horr... i wanna see Egypt... (Alex only update his blog when he is going away to different country for work. So go read his blog from now on to know bout Egypt!)

Anyways, i think i've blogged too much today... lol... talk again next time... when i have the mood to blog again like today... HAHahahhaaa.....

love you... miss you...

I am so angry!!!

Im so angry at many things lately!!!

and yes, little things will tick me off...!!!

Especially when im not appreciated when im putting on effort!

Talking about my damn phone first... =_="

my stupid phone, decided to die on me almost 2 weeks ago... it keeps on shutting down on me for no reason n all of a sudden.. then when i restarted the damn phone, the battery drains out.... =__="

Then on sunday, i decided to bring it back to the place that i bought the damn phone from which is at Low Yat Plaza, the person who sold me the phone has resigned... Then i was entertained by a lady who couldnt explain well in english...

She told me to either leave my phone there with her as the service centre is at Times Square or i bring to Times Square myself... =___=" and i was thinking, blardy hell... i leave my phone to u then what the hell do i use to make calls? =____="

So, i decided to bring my phone to Times Square myself on monday (which was yesterday)... and it was freaking hard to find the shop... cause the only instruction i got from the girl at Low Yat on how to find the place is "U go to where the bread shop is... take the lift and its at 9th floor... after you come out from the lift, u turn right then right, u will see the shop already"... =______=" wat a direction... so i end up walking the whole 9th Floor at every corner to find the shop.... ish ish ish... after i found the place, they checked my phone and found out that its the battery problem... and they said the battery on warranty for 1 month!!! Only one fucking month! How absurd is that.... =________=" So, they ask me to buy a new battery.... KANASAI!

Second thing that im very angry about... and i always turned so disappointed and angry and end up crying for hours whenever this happens... Im like that... when im angry about certain things or certain someone, if i cannot scold back or retaliate, i will end up crying... So its either i go berzerkly crazy angry or just end up crying...

This is about particular someone, which i have made loads of effort to be nice with almost all my life (its not as if i have a choice).... everytime that person is down or sad, im always there to help that person and lend an ear to that person...

She wanted me to treat her as a best friend, i have tried... But we could only be so called best friends when she is in a good mood... when she is in a bad mood, i seriously feel like killing her... KILLINGGGG her.... its that bad ok!

Oh well, i was being nice and generous and felt that she deserve the loving from me last week (cause i know she has done alot for me and protected me alot)... So i ordered and purchased a bouquet of 24 stalks of red roses for her last week and surprise her.... which i had never done that to anyone else ok! and also i thought that person never recieve any flowers from anyone else before, so i thought buying flowers for her is the perfect gift for the occasion... Oh well, she was happy for 2 days only... but yesterday, bcos somebody else piss her off, she has to come piss me off... This happens every single time!!! Whenever that somebody piss her off, she will come lashing out on me! WTF man!!!

As soon as she called me yesterday night, she already come lashing out.. scolding me right away after i pick up phone... for things which she was only a quarter right and rest was just all mere anger.... but she just had to find a victim to scold and she come pick me... like seriously man, luckily she is someone important to me... or else, if she were to be like any friend of mine and come scolding me like that.... what do u think will happen to her huh??? All my close friends know my freaking temper man!!! That moment, i really felt like grabbing her in the head... shake her hard and slap her to wake up man!!! Like fucking hell!!! Im no longer a kid ok!!!

If u r so unhappy about certain things, then get rid of that certain thing...!!! it aint that hard ok!! There is no such thing as u cant live without certain something or certain someone...!! Fuck man!!! If u feel that u have so unhappy with that certain something, why not let it go? I can see that u have turn crazier each day and each year when u still have that thing... Get rid of it for God's sake!!! If u cannot get rid of it, then just suck it up and accept the fact la!!!! And live with it for the rest of your life man!!! Always say u cannot tahan...cannot tahan this n that... then do something about it!!! Bitching about it everyday and not do anything, doesnt solve shit ok!!! Fuck man!! Am so tulanated... =_____________="

And if u happen to read this woman.... I seriously do not like to be threaten... U have to remember, i am an adult... threatening me dont work... I will do worse for u to see... You should know i have sacrificed so much for you... please do not come telling me that... "oh, dont do things because of me ok! I dont need u to... I ask u to do this is because of your own good.." Oh please... if its not bcos of you, i wouldnt be this broke today alright... It just hurts me alot everytime u say that... all i wanted was an appreciation from you... But i just dont feel appreciated, and it makes me feel not worth it to do things that i dont like just bcos of you... If i feel appreciated, at least i'll feel happy doing it and feel its damn worth it to do so for u... Now, it just feels so not worth it man... *suddenly, becoming stewardess is still a better idea!!!!*

And we r almost the same kind... u should know how i will react if im threaten... is the same way as how will u react if u r threaten... im sure u freaking dont like it right????

I really find it so sad when a person doesnt know to accept the fact...deal with their own problems maturely...

Everybody has their own problems and stresses... everybody's capability of handling stresses are at different level... I find it so unfair when people always say.. "oh, ur stress and problems cannot compare to mine la..." "I have been forced to steal to survive, n eat shit, pick up shit or watever fucking shit during my hard times last time"... If u can do that, i salute you... this just means u can handle hard times n stresses way better than me... I am people from this generation n not your generation... cannot be compared this way ok... Different people can cope with different level of stresses ok... so stresses cannot be compared!!

ARGGHHHH.... im so angry...

But to be honest, things happen to you today is because u cannot deal with it properly... ur solution is always about yelling n scolding and always think u r right!... nvr want to accept advices from people... oh, u do accept advices from ur friends who always gives u nonsense advises... which i have heard of it, and i dont think it works... U want things to workout, u should listen to people who is closest to you first... not outsiders! Outsiders dont understand u as well as people who has known u all ur life! But i nvr understand, y dont u understand me well? This is probably because u dont bother to listen and be attentive to my needs and care... all you know is come lashing out on me when u r in bad mood...

i can darely say that i understand u way better than u understand me... cause i have tried analysing ur problems and i know whats your problem... But again, if i were to really tell you wats your problem and share it with you... there are only 2 outcome from you... You will either come yelling me, start threatening again and disown me, or u will just kill yourself cause u nvr realise how much mistakes u have done... Thats y i nvr bother to really open all out to tell you what is wrong.... i know u enough to know ur reaction if i were to be totally completely truthful... sighh... If only u can put an open mind and accept it openly of what i think went wrong with u.... and change for the better... i believe ur life will be much better...

U might think, as if im much better like that... i know im not much better... no human is perfect... but it is about whether u accept new ideas, suggestions and be able to listen to what people have to say, comment and critic about u... and if possible, change a little?

i learn new things everyday... and im the type that accept critic from people... (even though soemtimes i dont look like i care or i dont listen but i still end up analysing myself later on when im all alone n emoish) i will listen but of course i dont neccesary follow... by listening, at least you'll know what people really thinks of you... and u can choose to listen or ignore them... When people says im lazy... and yeah, hell alot of people says im lazy... and this definately means something right?... which means im really lazy la... and this i know... and at least i know, i choose to either continue be lazy and ruin my future or buck up somehow or whenever before its too late.... you dont need to always have to react on bad comments about u by blowing up or yell because u have the authority to!!! If its this case, u will nvr change and your problems will nvr go away... get my point, woman?!

URRGGGHHH.... im so sick la... sick of this...

anyways, i know wan... if this woman reads this, confirm i will kena lashing n yelling again.... BAH! like i care anymore... talking to her dont work cause her reasoning is that im being disrespectful... well, u wan me to treat u like best friends right? this is how i talk to my best friends when im angry... i give them a piece of my mind... and this is how i show i really care about them... by scolding them when they r really in the wrong!

Friday, May 08, 2009

Hennessy Artistry @ The Loft, Upstairs, KL & QEII, Penang

Hennessy Artistry rocks!!!

All thanks to Hennessy Artistry and Nuffnang, I attended both of these Hennessy Artistry in KL and Penang 2 weeks ago... and both parties rocked...!!!

First off.... the happenings at The Loft, KL....


Presented nicely, all the decorations n etc...

As a blogger... and as someone who loves Hennessy so much, i was invited to the press conference on the day of the event date itself...

In there, all media people, press people were served light snacks, finger foods and unlimited flow of Hennessy....


The set up for the press conference...


Starz Angels and Caprice

The Different types of Hennessy that will be served this time...


Hennessy Ginger


Hennessy Soda


Hennessy Apple

My favourite is Hennessy Ginger... taste nicer and different... but to be honest, i feel that last year's Hennessy Cocktail mixtures are nicer than this year though... and everybody says so too.... i miss Hennessy Miami...


The crowd for that night... there were loads of ppl though... this seriously shows how good Hennessy Artistry events are... very much in demand... hahahaaa...


Me and Steph


Me, Ren and Steph

And the best pic of the night...


The whole big group of bloggers....

Then i drove back to Penang on friday night... to go to Hennessy Artistry Penang on Saturday...

It was held at QEII, Penang...


Set up for the night... in QEII, Penang...


DJ area...


The amount of alco we consumed that night... actually there were more of them...

And most of us K.Oed...went drunk that night... and i presonally feel that the one in Penang was much more fun than the one that i attended in KL... this is because the crowd was fun... and all my closest friends and people that i love was there...

I was drunk that night... Steph and Ren was superbly drunk that they puked the whole night.... LOL... It was really so much fun... =)


Ren, Ben, Steph, Me, Johnson, Keith, and my dearest Mel...


Me and my lovely wife... Melissa Oh... a very nice pic indeed...

Best pic of the night...


Whole group of us... Notice the look of Ren... so damn drunk... oh and when this pic was taken, only Ren was drunk... LOL! (picture obviously stolen from Hennessy Artistry website)

Thanks alot Hennessy and Nuffnang for the nice VIP invites... i had a very superb time... and cant wait for another Hennessy Artistry events... But it wont be long... lol... cause another one is coming soon!!!!

on 4th of June @ Zouk, KL!!!


For more info, go to.. www.hennessyartistry.com.my