Friday, March 26, 2010

This entry is to trash people! The Fakeness of people...

This is an entry about friendships, fake friendships and disappointment...

And im going to be totally straight forward here but without naming any names... if u think its you, then its u... cause its gonna be so straight forward that even a retard with down syndrome would know... I cannot handle anymore fakeness already... If i hurt your feelings here, Im sorry... You should know im being straight forward n honest here... Unless u rather me be fake, then i guess we r not suppose to be friends... I've lost of alot friends lately... got betrayed, got hurt... i dont mind losing a few more...

I used to have a friend (lets give her a name: Boobless)... which we met through a guy friend in KLCC and then we got closer in Hennessy Artistry event mid 2008... we got so close that we meet each other almost everyday... to the point that people actually mistaken us for lesbians... We went to every single event together in KL... I fetched her to everywhere we wanna go... I celebrated her birthday for her on year 2008 in advance in Pavillion... Bought her bday cake all by myself when no one wanted to even chip in for her birthday... On her real birthday, we went to Perhentian Island together... I treat her diving, transport and some meal... Most of the time when we go out, i treat her... (that is of course when i have extra cash, and i was single of course i got extra cash)... And come to think of it, it was kinda stupid of me to treat someone that nice whom i only know for half a year...

You will see Miss Boobless face on almost each of my blog entry in year 2008... when i read back on my blog entry how much i used to love her... it hurts so much... sigh...

Around Nov, i lost my handphone due to break-in to my car... Then on Dec 2008, I bought a new phone... The Sony Ericsson Xperia X1... My mum paid for me actually.. And she was really hesitant to buy such expensive for me cause u know parents... never agree in buying such expensive stuff...

On Mid Jan, I lost my Xperia... In Zouk.. and i did not blog about me losing my phone cause i didnt wan my mum to kill me that time... HOw did i lose it? I trusted that Boobless girl with my handphone and put it in her purse... I was busy smsing my bf but that time not yet bf... U know the courting period... of course a lot of sweet smses... When i lost my phone in Zouk, I went berzerk... I yelled, i cried, i throw tables... I cursed the mother fucker who stole my phone will die while shitting or even choke on rice n die... (unfortunately, the person did not.. But since now i know who did it, I hope next time when that person has a daughter, that person's daughter will be born retarded and got raped at the age of 4 repeatedly until the daughter dies... If has a son, the son will be erectile dysfunction and born retarded)... I totally trusted that person, thats y i left my phone on her hand.. I did not even suspect its Boobless... If i had suspected it was her at the first place i would have searched her body that time la... mother fucking bitch! My other friends who went with me to ZOuk that night, actually suspected its Boobless.. but i chose not to believe and i chose not to find out... Cause i had full faith in her... that i treated like my own sister... in fact, much nicer than my own sister and my own best friend... I totally didnt believe she would do that to me...

As for me, i got Rm3K more broke... As i did not wan my mum to know i lost the phone, i borrowed money from my best friend and buy the same shitty phone again... But this time is an AP phone... the first X1 was Ori... I took like 4 months to return the RM3K to my best friend with some help from my bf... So, i was freaking broke for 4 months...Imagine la, i lived in KL.. rental RM400 and plus utilities almost Rm600 all together... and i return my best friend rm500 every month and my salary after tax was rm1700... and i eat out every single day...

So last friday, i went to Hennessy Artistry... I finally want to know whether is it Boobless that did it because she has been bad mouthing me, betraying me behind my back, when i have done totally nothing to her... Examples: Things that i told her about another friend, i tell her not to tell... She went n tell that friend... (No, i did not gossip, it was pure fact anyways)... And i actually kinda purposely tell her those things, cause i wan to know whether she is the back stabbing bitch, back stabbibg me... when i know she really did tell, thats it la... I dont wan to be nice anymore... cause i freaking hate 'kiss n tell' people... I start on my mission to find out whether my lost phone is really on her hands... So i went to Hennessy Artistry last friday to find out...

And yupp, true enough... I compared the IMEI No. that i had from my X1 box to the IMEI No. from the phone.. it matches... When i knew it was her, i got so disappointed, sad.. n try not to believe it... When i confronted Boobless, she denied... She said... Same IMEI No. doesnt mean is your phone ok! Like WTF??? Cannot deny adi wat... She somemore said, its some guy name Jimmy that give it to her... and she told me "If u want, i ask Jimmy to come here la!" So i said... Ok, ask him to come here... i will wait! And at this point, she said "How to ask him to come, he's at overseas!" HAHAHAHAhahahahaa.... Fucking funny... This stupid reason reminds me of when i was in school, when my headmistress ask me to call my parents to school for disciplinary problems, i used to use this lame excuse to the headmistress... I have tried to take care of her pride by confronting her at the staircase where there's not much people around.. but when i walked off, she came after me (i was already at the entrance of first floor) n yelled at me saying she wants her phone back! Like wtf??? When i turned back to her, she kinda attacked me n slapped me... which she kinda missed a little cause she was shorter than i am... and she is a small size, that slap feels like nothing... I pushed her away leaning towards the wall...and told her... "there is no use for u to do this, im much stronger than u... what are you trying to do huh?" When i let go off her, she tries attacking again... funny man... a small size girl with a strength of a kitten trying to over power this huge me??? At this point, of course everyone there are looking at us... So, yeah... if u were to be at Hennessy Artistry at the Opera last friday, and u see 2 girls fighting on first floor, that would be me n Boobless... I even yelled to her... "You fucking phone stealer! Im not gonna giving you back the fucking phone! If u wan the phone back, u go report police and tell the police that i stole ur phone la!"...

I seriously regret until today that i did not hit her back that time... But i kinda know why i didnt that time... cause i knew if i were to hit her, she will confirm fall flat! I actually still cared how she would have felt..! WTF!!!!! Silly me!! Why am i so nice at the wrong fucking time????!!!

This lesson has really made me realize... Only RM3k can cause a friendship.. it does not matter how much i have done for that person... This incident seriously made me feel so scared to have close friends anymore... WHy people cannot be a little bit more genuine? Im not asking for 100% genuine cause i know, its impossible to be 100% genuine anymore... but at least, treat the person on the same level as how the person treats u.... Like when a person is nice n genuine to u at 60%, u could at least be at 50%... not at 10%! Is it that hard?? It gets so disappointing...

This makes me seriously feel to not wan have friends anymore... I rather be cooped up at home n be alone man!

BTW MISS BOOBLESS, IM STILL WAITING FOR YOUR JIMMY FRIEND TO COME PICK UP THE PHONE! BRING PROOF OF PURCHASE YA SINCE U SAY SAME IMEI NO. DOESNT MEAN YOU STOLE MY PHONE!

OK, I DECIDED TO BE A BITCH... MISS BOOBLESS IS ACTUALLY MISS STEPHANIE KOK YEN LING, THE PHONE STEALER THAT STAYS AT KEPONG, KL! STUDIES AT TARC IN KL... Nehh... short, boobless (totally no boobies... no even a small bump... only nipples!), small built, super long hair and always like to flip her hair around like she is so damn pretty like that... and a fucking phone stealer... and oh, she likes to find rich boyfriends to maintain her lifestyle... she only loves branded stuff... if you buy her branded stuff, she will fuck you adi... go ahead n try la, if u think she is pretty enough... Please go fuck her until she have aids or stds ok....

Lately, i have also been having problems with another friend of mine... Let call her Miss LongHair... I have been friends with LongHair for a very long time... someone whom i shared watever nonsense i have... i shared it all to her... but lately, it has been very hard... I dont know how to trust her... I dont know wat to believe in her anymore... I honestly feel, that watever i try to say or share, doesnt mean anything anymore... Cause somehow, the problem is with me.. i feel she will be lying or be fake again... I have put a wall on her... sometimes the wall gets thicker... sometimes it gets thinner... I just cant seem to totally remove that wall... We used to share similar thoughts... I have no walls on her... i talk watever shit i wan in front her... and she will still be listening n giving me advice that makes me think... damn, we r so alike... but now, when i tell her things... for example, my relationship stuff... about me quarreling with my bf... She will either vaguely answer me... Or like try to answer me things that she thinks i wan to hear... But when she answer me things that i dont like to hear, i put on a deaf ear to her... and this problem is getting serious... Its like, she give me the answer that i wan to hear also die for her (cause i will think she is starting to act fake again)... And to be honest, i think i know her well enough to differentiate whether her answer is really from her opinion or something that i wan to hear... and if she gives me her real opinion also die for her (cause when i hear something i dont like, i put on a deaf ear)... For example; when she said my bf is being freako, possesive n etc.. I dont like to hear it... cause my thinking is... my bf is like bcos he doesnt wan me to fall back into my old reckless life...and he is afraid of losing me to that kind of life... And bcos of wat i did to him in the beginning of our relationship, thats why he is still having trouble trusting me... So, at times when i argue with my bf regarding trust issues, i will talk to Miss LongHair about it and she will say things that i wan to hear n things that wouldnt offend me... I dunno how to explain la... Miss LongHair will understand this...

This is because our thinking is no longer the same... I think i am moving forward to a stable, wan kid, family, husband life... she is still into single life... this is where we are different...

Whatever that she is doing to her life... destroying her life as i see it... As how she sees my life as pityful... I used to not agree wat she is doing to her life... As i seriously love her too much that i dont want her to go tru the nonsense i went tru before i found this bf of mine / cum husband :D .... But i come to agree with my ownself that... She will not listen... like how i used to not listen when people give me good advise... I need to see the black hole... jump into that big black hole then only will believe its a big black hole... this is how normal human actually are... gatai... must go bang the wall then only will believe the wall is hard... So now, our conversations are not longer in depth.. in details... we only talk very surface stuff... like her daily life, her work and my daily boring life... We are so not the same anymore... And it seriously hurts me that we r turning into this... I think this problem is very hard to solve.. as i got my own issues to solve... My own issues as in... I cannot help myself but to start thinking each time she say something, i will start to think... is she being genuine or is she saying this bcos this is wat she thinks i wan to hear? So yeah, this problem lies in me... Not her fault actually... But sometimes u see, i known her for so many years, i can differentiate whether she is being genuine or not... when i sense fakeness again, my wall to her turn thick... And im the type that likes to act stupid... I did not say it, doesnt mean i dont know anything... I just keep it to myself until the right time to tell... or maybe i wont even tell... I will just go disappointed n my wall just gonna turn thicker... Last friday, we talk things out through the phone... and im glad everything came out... My wall towards her turn thin... in fact, much thinner compare to way before... (but of course, there are still somethings that are not quite out yet, i will talk to Miss LongHair about it when i see her next time...) I really seriously wan our friendship to work the way it was before... I wan to hold no barrier when talking to u n u hold no barrier when talking to me... (ok, im writing this as if its for her cause i know she reads my blog).... I dont wanna care wat u r doing now with ur life is right or wrong anymore... I just wan our friendship back to the way it was... I know it maybe hard for now... And im pretty sure in the future, we could be like the way it was before... (as in when we both have family of our own) then we will be on the same track again... ... I wan to be there for you when u have problems... like before... I wan sincere, genuine friendship... No fakeness anymore.... You should know how much i cannot stand people being fake... you should know how many people have betrayed me when i have done nothing wrong to them... I even have cried for stupid friends that steal my shoes when i was in college... and cried bcos of that boobless phone stealer bitch...
And you my dear, i have cried so many times bcos of you... not only recently... but way before when u did disappoint me at some occasions... but u didnt know... i just cried silently because of u.. for so many times over n over...

I dont wan to feel like an immature young high school girl that cries for friendship... i feel lame ok... Sometimes, adults are like kids... im so old adi, but i sometimes forget that im an adult... i think of stupid stuff n worry over little stupid stuff like a kid... sighh....

I hope by now, u will have not much hard feelings... remember i told u on the phone, i promise to try to open up as much as possible... this is my first step of trying...

***Actually this entry, i was thinking of writing about at least 4 different people... but its 6.15am now! so i chose 2 people to write about... one is to trash Miss Boobless... one is to open up to Miss LongHair... thats y my first paragraph of this entry is irrelevant adi... :)***

***** UPDATE: Miss Boobless blocked her blog after reading this entry of mine... See, really guilty people does that.... *****

Wanna see how pretty the Boobless phone stealer looks like?

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Blog ----> since she blocked her blog, u cant see anything...

***** Another update: She totally close down her facebook n her blog adi... Nothing to see adi... :( Did she die or something? Hahahahahahahahahaaaa.... she should...! *****

8 comments:

yienyien said...

omg.. if i have this kind of fren.. i will report police!! i think i will b violent! Hoho!

Mauster said...

there is no point getting violent over her... like u said, you could have easily hurt her. and imagine if she went to the police about this, more people will think worse of you than they do of her...

when bullied, do not let the other party have the chance to sabo you back.

HLMilk said...
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HLMilk said...

oh my goodness. you youths these days waste so much time complaining on blog with atrocious english. If you stop this, you will have more productive time doing other things and getting better grades. try doing community work rather than complaining. What do u gain by complaining? Only hurt yourself and not other people. You can curse all you want but you are not God so whatever u curse about other people will not come true. Think about it. You can by all means blow up inside but this only hurts yourself, not others. so please stop it and love yourself more. Be contented with what you have and stop complaining.

raisincain said...

Hennessey is a town of drama and gossiping people.Most of which I have met here not only have different sex partners for each day of the week but a different face as well.

HLMilk said...

To author of blog.. u criticize boobless, ms longhair.. u still have 2 other people to write about. The problem lies with YOU and not the people around you. who in the right mind will go around criticizing everybody. I guarantee you can complain about everybody in the world and all the friends around you and yet you will still feel empty, wallowing in your own mud. You are not the president or king so don't expect those around you serve you or to do things to please you. You are so critical about people around you but don't see the problem in yourself. i reckon you look inwards and correct yourself rather than nit-pick on the flaws of others. "Do not do to others what you do not want them to do to you". Since you can criticize 4 person on the blog, do you think that they are at fault if they do likewise and criticize u on their blogs?
By the way, it is against the law for mentioning others' name and bad-mouthing them on blogs. You better be careful with what you say. If you are so ignorant on this, go check out on cyber-bullying.
What good are you by blaming people for stealing your phone (if what you said was indeed true):
i) you lied to your headmistress in school by giving lame excuses.
ii) You curse others and use swear words.
iii) you LIED to your mum about your phone.
So are you better than those whom you criticize on your blog???? seems like everybody around you is fake but ONLY you are genuine?? 60% genuine? I doubt so. Everybody has their own traits and flaws. So do I. Give and take. Nobody is perfect.

princessladyjane said...

Wow.. HLMilk.. Like seriously.. one comment after another? U must be lurking n stalking my blog huh...

I wonder how many times u must have read this entry again n again n again to be able to pin point all those huh..

This is my blog, i can write watever i want... Oh, did i criticize Miss LongHair? Funny though, Miss LongHair did not see it that way..

Oh, n did i say i am better than those i criticize?
Like seriously, i dont feel any emptiness in my life.. I have parents that loves me, bf that loves n friends that loves me... I seriously would like to see myself wallowing in my own mud.. Hahaha!

And urmm, did i mention anywhere that i expect people around me to serve me nor change the way they are?
Seriously, Its my own right to criticize people.. And those people dont have to correct themselves for me nor do i have to correct myself for people...

I have always treated people the way they deserv to be treated.. i was brought up to treat people how i would like people to treat me back.. So since, those people dont know how to treat me back nice since im already so nice in the first place, why should i continue to be nice?
Seriously, i dont give a flying fuck if people criticize me in their blogs.. cause its their right.. and seriously, nobody will ever criticize me stealing their stuff... as i always believe, own pride is always the cost of the things you steal.. So to that Boobless bitch, her pride and face only cost RM3K...

So yeah, i will crticize and swear n curse and lie to whomever i want...

Like u said, everybody have their own flaws, i agree on that... So please dont act as if u have never lied throughout ur whole life.. or act as if u r so angelic.. Yes, i know u never mention u r angelic, but the way u write it, appears to be so..

Since u r like telling me off not to criticize people and all.. what are you doing here criticizing me...? I welcome any criticism.. but its ur own words that told me not to criticise people and u r doing that to me... Hmmm.... funny...

So seriously, fuck off... *opps, i swear again*

HLMilk said...

this is the last comment. continue cursing then. you are only hurting yourself. i received a spam mail which directed me to this blog that's y i read it. if you think i'm angelic, sorry i am not. nobody on this earth is angelic. like i said of cos i have lied so i am in no position to criticize anybody as well. ALL man (INCLUDING ME) are sinners. so are you and I. if you think u like criticizing people then go on and find your true happiness. anyway i don't know you so this is just an attempt to help from an outsider's point of view. Anyway just take care. no more comments from now and go on with your swearing.