Thursday, September 09, 2010

Wow....

Wow.. i didnt realised that i have abandon and neglected my blog since June!

Fuhh!!

As i am in Penang, nothing much happening can be blog about man... the most i can do is usually talk about my boring mundane life in Penang... which doesnt interest most of u all... except for some few 'people'... Or like some stalkers!

What have i been doing since June till now? Nothing much... As usual, continue gaining weight, got more addicted to online shopping... But as of today, i vow to never buy anymore online clothes unless i go stick figure thin...

Then, spent my birthday with my bf... and only bf.. dont feel like celebrating with anyone else cause i dont have friends anymore... and old women, dont celebrate birthdays man!... Once u pass the 25 years old mark as a women, u dont celebrate birthdays anymore except with your the other half... or if u r a man!

All in all, i gain some new close gal friends since June... and realized a close friend being obviously two faced... And i miss my best friend more even though we no longer click like we used to... Met her again last week after like a month plus didnt see her... felt like i miss her alot.. but hard to find back the old feeling i used to have with her... as usual, when i saw her at the beginning, it feels kinda awkward... then it got better and comfortable in no time...

How do i start to miss her? Accidentally bump into her twice in a span of like 2 weeks? To me, it feels like a sign from God... Its like i should do something to save this friendship... But i dont know how... i really n seriously dont know how.. Its like we dont have much topic and in depth topic to talk about anymore... we only talk about surface stuff u know... So, i was thinking, i should just let time to decide... not meet her for awhile.. n maybe like half a year later or a year maybe, we might forget everything in the past and be close again?

But then God decides to take action n let us bump into each other twice! That seriously must mean something lo! But im a shit ass friend... i just dont know wat to do... Above all that, even though we dont talk as much...even though we dont seem to be like best friends anymore, She will always be my best friend in my heart... She will always be in a special place in my heart... its like she will always be that special someone to me in my heart for a long time... I know i sound gay.. but its true, so shut up...

Wat else am i going to do with my life for the rest of the year? Gonna celebrate my the other half's bday next week... My dieting start today, like seriously adi this time.. and if i dont go stick thin by next year or by the time i get married... i should really kill myself... Im so fat now that im hiding myself from friends that used to see me thin... I dont like to see the 'omg, u r so fat now' shocking look! Better hide myself... until i go thin enough n confident enough to face the world... Imagine la, even my parents also dont wan me to attend family functions cause they say its embarrassing for me n them that im so fat now... And i also dont wan to attend family functions la... U know all those aunties n uncles... same shit questions from chinese family/relatives all the time.. When u getting married la? why so fat? Dont la fat... and they can talk about my fats for like an hour plus n dont realised that im fucking pissed inside (i experienced it during chinese new eyar this year)... And if some of the people whom i know, saw me n say im not fat... I confirm know that person is a fake ass bitch! I will just give a fake smile.. and uhhh walk away...

Oh, and i bravely put on braces!! Like finally!!! Since im already ugly n fat... so i thought why not make myself uglier by putting on braces... Let all the ugliness come at once!! My braces need to be put on for like 2 and half year... need to extract 4 teeth.. But now, my braces is on for my top teeth first... And only with the top braces on, its already so hard for me to eat n chew... and since im no used to having braces, i seriously dont know where to place the braces... I usually just place them in between my lips so that i will feel comfortable (u know, metal keep on banging on the wall of the mouth feels damn uncomfotable ok!)... And i was imagining, if i have both top n bottom braces on, confirm so uncomfortable adi... dunno how to place them in my mouth!

Ok, enough blabbing... Gotta go... i will probably abandon this blog for a few months more... unless i have exciting news to share... which i doubt so...

Tata u stalkers!